Monday was a no-good, very bad sort of day.
I took off work so I could sleep off Vegas (see - I can be smart about stuff sometimes) and I blogged and I cleaned house and I rested a little and then I opened my email - something I hadn't done since early on Friday.
And it turns out, sometimes the universe has a design. In this case, it kept me from seeing that email until after my weekend, thus ensuring that I would enjoy myself and not be freaking out and over-the-moon with stress.
I lost my job.
Not the day job, thank goodness - that would be truly catastrophic - but the side job that's helped put some butter on the daily bread and enabled me to keep my head above water to some degree. It was bound to happen sooner or later, and truthfully, in some ways it's a bit of a relief.
Having to blog about your divorce, and other people's divorces, and the effects of divorce on kids, and divorce studies, and the fallout of divorce and reinventing yourself after divorce five days a week for four and a half years can really leave you stuck in a bad head place. There were a lot of days where I'd stare at the screen, willing something - anything - to come out and there were a lot of days where researching a blog post made me depressed as hell.
Yesterday was the first day I didn't have to do that, and even though I'm hyperventilating at the thought of losing that money (and I am, oh believe me, I am), it's time to move on. They knew it, and I know it. And I am nothing but grateful for the opportunity and the platform that they gave me these last four years.
So I put up a profile on eLance and I'm investigating some other opportunities and I'm working on finishing two eBooks I have in the works and I'm seriously thinking about taking a week off work (I have the vacation time) to get my head on straight and figure out where to go from here. In the meantime, all this flurry of writing and pitching and checking out jobs has left me looking something like this.
So for now, I'll keep on telling you my stories, or commenting on others, and life will keep moving forward. It always does.
Wish me luck, folks. It's a big, cold blogging jungle out there.